When My Strength is Weak

-When My Strength is Weak-

When my strength is weak,

it is God who upholds me.

When i feel like i have nothing left to give,

it is then that He carries me in His arms.

When my sorrow is great,

and my burdens only seem to multiply,

it is then that God takes my burdens from me.

When my strength is weak,

it is God who upholds me.

I know that many of you have been wondering why I haven’t posted in awhile.  The reason is, I didn’t even know where to begin.  How do I describe to you the amount of pain and sorrow that i see day in and day out?  How do I let you know how deeply in love with the Lord I am, yet at the same time, how do i let you know that my heart has become callous to the pain and endless needs everywhere?  It’s hard to share with you the fact that my heart has broken so much for the people (pre-earthquake, and now post-earthquake my heart has been broken 1000x more) that it doesn’t even feel like it has the capacity to break anymore.  It’s a terrible feeling that I hope I never have to experience again.  It is the reality of going through a traumatic event though, so I thank God that I’m not the only one!  Because of this new level of, whatever it could be called, I knew I needed to take a break from everything, and praise God that I had others close to me here who urged me to do this.  As soon as I realized I was able to take a break, I felt such a huge weight lifted off of me, and my heart felt like it was already becoming softer again!  I know that may sound cheesy, but it’s true!  It was such an amazing feeling, and it’s simply because God is so gracious and knows our needs! 

As I laid in bed two nights ago, the rain began to pour down for the first time since the earthquake, and my heart was once again greatly burdened for the people outside living under their little tarps, because now it has begun: now the diseases will begin to spread because of the decomposing bodies lying underneath the rubble, now the hurricane season is coming, now the mudslides will begin to wash away even more homes and people.  The Haitian’s need your prayers more than ever now.  Please don’t forget about them now that some of the initial “hype” is over.  This is only just the beginning.